As a parent, I’ve found that life seems to move along quickly until you hit a bump or slam into a wall that jolts you back into realization of the responsibility you have. It’s easy to get caught up in schedules and routines until you have one of those moments. Your kid gets sick or has a strange rash appear. All of a sudden your mind is flooded with how to care for them best and all the question marks of what to do. May be it’s a time when you nearly miss a car accident because you were slightly distracted passing out snacks or digging for a lost shoe. May be it’s the time you lost sight of your child in a crowded area and felt your heart jump into your throat for a brief moment filled with sheer panic.
I always wind up giving myself a pep talk about what’s important and how to do better next time but it’s a recurring event which all parents endure. We have a big job. We are responsible for these little people that depend on us. It brings with it both overwhelming joys and fears. We have the opportunity to do so much with what’s been given to us and yet we are only human in our abilities.
Every time I’ve encountered a moment filled with the heavy realization of my role as “parent”, I am quick to turn to my Father. I am reminded how human I am and how great God is. I am thankful I’m not alone. I’m thankful when he made me a mother, he also equipped me with His grace and His wisdom. I am thankful I can ultimately lay my worries and cares at His feet. There will be many more moments of anxiety as I parent my children and each one can only be calmed by the rest He gives. Every situation of, “what am I supposed to do” can be remedied by his great wisdom, which he freely gives to those who ask. Every moment of fear that tries to creep up and tell me, “you messed it all up” can be shut up by His peace, which is beyond comprehension.
Every person needs a savior, even Emmy and Tucker. I pray that when they encounter these moments where I am inevitably not enough, HE is enough for them. I pray that when I fail as I humanly will, they see how He never fails them. He will never lose his patience with them. He has enough grace for them. He never takes his eyes off them. He is their healer and their refuge. He is their heavenly Father and thank goodness I don’t parent them alone.
“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you”
“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus”
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble”